Everyday, I learn more about her. I learn about me too. Yesterday was a sensory day. As we got to enjoy the warm air of springtime, we also felt the cool breeze while in the shade. As we sat and crunched leaves in between our fingers, an f-16 flew above us. It was startling at first, but my daughter looked at me to see what my reaction would be. Surprised, yes. Scared, no. Cars passed by, and would divert our attention for a split second. We would go back to trying to pick off the silver bolts, ever so gently, on the play set. Well, Reagan would try. She was so calm, which relaxed me.
Afterwards, there was a package waiting for me to pick up at the post office. I carried her in, and she stayed asleep in her car seat the entire time while in line. People would come and go, clack their heels on the floor, and one even slammed the door. None of it seemed to bother her. She was great.
She was even calm when sleeping.
She is learning everyday. There are some days where I get stuck in a rut and dont want to leave the house. I just want to relax and enjoy the quiet. Spending time and playing with her is at the top of my priority list. I enjoy playing peek a boo, and hiding my face under a blanket. When she pulls the blanket off to reveal my face, its this joy that just lights up her eyes.
All of these things made me think. I thought about the cars speeding by at the park. What was their rush? Everybody just seems so busy in today's world and we often forget to "Stop and smell the flowers". Why is that important?
To me, breaking out of the ordinary is when we learn. New experiences make us vulnerable. They break down the 'unknown' barrier in us, and build us back up. We explore and learn.
That's why we visited the park. To relax, explore and learn. We left our dirty piles of laundry at home, and took a break. I stopped rushing to make sure the house is perfect before the boys get home. I didn't time dinner, nor rush to fix it. We took care of ourselves and enjoyed quality time out of the house.
Sometimes, I need to remember that not everything has to be done right now. Everything can't be perfect all the time. Let go, quit rushing, and enjoy what time you have.